Everytime I try to blog here. Technology keeps fucking up...
There's some kind of Aura at work here.
Somebody is trying to stop what I am doing?
Friday, March 13, 2009
God Gave Me a Taste of Enlightenment: Enlightenment 210
I can stop crying.
I now understand the truth.
True love is what I found yesterday. On the 16th day of my vow of Celeibacy I gave up.2 days before I told my friends how much pain I was in.
"At least wait 2 days after you start blue balling" ~Eric Rallos
I told everyone I needed to force myself to cancel my vow inorder to save what was left of my life.
My vow caused me to have insomnia the past week.
Insomnia made it easy for me to become annorexic.
If I didn't eat I couldn't sleep.
I spent the nights waiting for Sleep but it never came.
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I now understand the truth.
True love is what I found yesterday. On the 16th day of my vow of Celeibacy I gave up.2 days before I told my friends how much pain I was in.
"At least wait 2 days after you start blue balling" ~Eric Rallos
I told everyone I needed to force myself to cancel my vow inorder to save what was left of my life.
My vow caused me to have insomnia the past week.
Insomnia made it easy for me to become annorexic.
If I didn't eat I couldn't sleep.
I spent the nights waiting for Sleep but it never came.
coffeeTRUTH.blogspot.com
Coming to Earth: Enlightenment 209
Yesterday God actully came to me.God asked me for help.I wish I can prove it but I can't so don't ask.He told me to stop trying to control desire before desire controlled me."But I've almost mastered desire...""No you haven't, he has you right where he wants YOU!"When I met whoever it was I met yesterday, she touched me and let me unlock something in my heart that was there all along. God.Why was he inside me?How long was he there for?Why did it take him so long?Is theis really because I decided to end my vow of Celibacy?He told me it was okay. That I was only a man.
Putting Every Religion Together: Ying Yang TH3ORY 5
I did it. I've finally released my mind's eye.
I have reached Enlightenment. I now fully understand "True Love" I did it thanks to what Christians refer as "Jesus."
I'm now convinced that I had a 6 hour conversation with Jesus on our plan to save the world.
This scarred me because I knew the Devil was previlant.
I kept telling Jesus that we were definatly going to be stopped by the genius that is the Devil.
She told me to trust her. At the time I couldn't.
Our 6 hour conversation consisted of me telling her why I hated Christianity. A hint of politics was mentioned. Trying to find out what was refered to as "the anti-christ."
Jesus said it was human.
I called her erroneous! The anti-christ can only be learned through the power of Astronomy. My 8th Major.
She kept saying trust me.
I kept telling her my buddhist faith.
The only one I can trust is myself.
Then that's when it happened. The hand of God touched me.
This wave of energy flew from my right forearm into the rest of my body and out of my left arm, my left leg, and my head.
What the fuck just happened?
I didn't question her outloud.
Her desireless love for me allowed me to unlock my true potential. My heart connected with my mind which opened up my 3rd eye.
But I didn't realize it till now...6 hours after our conversation (interesting number... 1:33am)
I told her we could save the world by making some sort of blog site that can bring people together to discus God and how we will destroy the Anti-Christ.
"If you build it, they will come"
coffeeTRUTH.blogspot.com
I have reached Enlightenment. I now fully understand "True Love" I did it thanks to what Christians refer as "Jesus."
I'm now convinced that I had a 6 hour conversation with Jesus on our plan to save the world.
This scarred me because I knew the Devil was previlant.
I kept telling Jesus that we were definatly going to be stopped by the genius that is the Devil.
She told me to trust her. At the time I couldn't.
Our 6 hour conversation consisted of me telling her why I hated Christianity. A hint of politics was mentioned. Trying to find out what was refered to as "the anti-christ."
Jesus said it was human.
I called her erroneous! The anti-christ can only be learned through the power of Astronomy. My 8th Major.
She kept saying trust me.
I kept telling her my buddhist faith.
The only one I can trust is myself.
Then that's when it happened. The hand of God touched me.
This wave of energy flew from my right forearm into the rest of my body and out of my left arm, my left leg, and my head.
What the fuck just happened?
I didn't question her outloud.
Her desireless love for me allowed me to unlock my true potential. My heart connected with my mind which opened up my 3rd eye.
But I didn't realize it till now...6 hours after our conversation (interesting number... 1:33am)
I told her we could save the world by making some sort of blog site that can bring people together to discus God and how we will destroy the Anti-Christ.
"If you build it, they will come"
coffeeTRUTH.blogspot.com
I think I'm Almost There: Enlightenment 208
Something strange happened to me last night and the worst part is I can't explain it.
This girl I met just showed me love without a spec of desire.
"Absolute Love corrupts Abosolutely" I may have changed that proverb to best fit the way I fell right now.
What is going on with me?
This woman touched my arm and I felt what can only be described as "The Holy Ghost."
But here is the kicker...I don't believe in God.
I'm Buddhist.
I hate Christians because they propel hate in the world.
They hate eveyone that's not Christian.
They hate gay marriage.
They hate how democrates may be seizing power.
They hate how people don't believe what they believe (pride).
They hate too much.
This is why I'm not Christian.
Because I thought Christianity required even a little bit of hate as a prerequisite.
But this girl...
Who is she?
Why did she show up the day I gave up on Celibacy?
Why did she appear after 3 nights without sleep.
Why am I asking so many questions?
coffeeTRUTH.blogspot.com
This girl I met just showed me love without a spec of desire.
"Absolute Love corrupts Abosolutely" I may have changed that proverb to best fit the way I fell right now.
What is going on with me?
This woman touched my arm and I felt what can only be described as "The Holy Ghost."
But here is the kicker...I don't believe in God.
I'm Buddhist.
I hate Christians because they propel hate in the world.
They hate eveyone that's not Christian.
They hate gay marriage.
They hate how democrates may be seizing power.
They hate how people don't believe what they believe (pride).
They hate too much.
This is why I'm not Christian.
Because I thought Christianity required even a little bit of hate as a prerequisite.
But this girl...
Who is she?
Why did she show up the day I gave up on Celibacy?
Why did she appear after 3 nights without sleep.
Why am I asking so many questions?
coffeeTRUTH.blogspot.com
Thursday, March 12, 2009
How I Found the Gateway to Hell...
My whole failure with Celebacy wasn't a failure at all.
I've finally found what I was eventually going to face.
I went outside for a walk today and met Satan.
Of course he wasn't your Steriotypical devil.
He was a clean cut white man in a finely cut italian blue suit. He showed me how much money he made and where he bought his suit on sale.
Before he left he asked, "Hey man, you want to try on this swede suit?"
"I don't know yet" I responded cluelessly.
As we parted buisness cards I took a longer walk down the road.
There was this Beautiful woman walking by in a good looking red dress that showed her hourglass figure.
"Hey Jojo!"
"How do you know my name?"
"You'll find out eventually. How are you?"
"Umm... confused. Where am I?"
"HAHA." She laughed, "Seriously? You don't know?"
She left me speechless...
"Well your not on Earth I can tell you that much."
I've finally found what I was eventually going to face.
I went outside for a walk today and met Satan.
Of course he wasn't your Steriotypical devil.
He was a clean cut white man in a finely cut italian blue suit. He showed me how much money he made and where he bought his suit on sale.
Before he left he asked, "Hey man, you want to try on this swede suit?"
"I don't know yet" I responded cluelessly.
As we parted buisness cards I took a longer walk down the road.
There was this Beautiful woman walking by in a good looking red dress that showed her hourglass figure.
"Hey Jojo!"
"How do you know my name?"
"You'll find out eventually. How are you?"
"Umm... confused. Where am I?"
"HAHA." She laughed, "Seriously? You don't know?"
She left me speechless...
"Well your not on Earth I can tell you that much."
Suicide Into Ambition / Living in the Eclipse of My Brother
Suicide Into Ambition / Living in the Eclipse of My Brother
Meet Samuel Panganiban Josafat Jr.
I was the saddest kid in high school because I disired populairty.
Although I was best friends with some girls, I've never had a girlfriend.
A real girlfriend. A real relationship. Even till today.
My brother was different. He gets everything. Even till today.
As I saw my brother get the best clothes, play the most games, get the best computers, get the most awards, get the best relationships I started to wonder what the fuck was wrong with me?
I was never materialistic back then nor am I now. When ever we went shopping he spent at least $150 of my mom's money when I was only trying to spend $30 on jeans I thought were perfect.
When he turned 16 he got a job along with F's to prove he was working too much.
When I turned 16 I begged my mom if I could get a job. I showed her my financial plans. I gave her a contract stating at least 25% of my money went to helping her and dad pay for the house. I promised her my first paycheck.
She said no. She didn't want me to get bad grades (even though I ended up with them anyways).
As soon as he turned 16 he got his permit along with that job. He never came home in time for curfew.
He got caught with car jacking tools in the car by the police. He bought bb guns used to train police. He associated with gangsters but was not one of them.
I had to wait till I was 18 to get my own license.
He told people how much stress I gave him to people like Jenilee, Alison, and everyone he knew.
People hated me in respect for him.
We constantly faught over little things at home. Physically and mentally.
I don't recal ever talking shit about him.
He used to stand up for me sometimes while his friends took cheap shots at me about things such as colorguard, my sexuallity, and how much of a dork I was.
Today... He makes more money then me; but he accumulates massive amounts of debt.
He never has to try with women. He's had plenty of relationships. Long term relatoinships were easy for him to maintain. He's currently dating my ex even though I told him it was wierd.
He's still convinced that he's becoming a better brother.
Today... I make a decent wage at least compared to my friends; I'm almost out of debt.
I ALWAYS have to try with women. I've had only one online relationship. I've never had a relationship longer then 8 months a week and 2 and a half days. I would never cross the boundries of dating any of his exes.
I hope I can stay a good brother.
I was the saddest kid in high school because I disired populairty.
Although I was best friends with some girls, I've never had a girlfriend.
A real girlfriend. A real relationship. Even till today.
My brother was different. He gets everything. Even till today.
As I saw my brother get the best clothes, play the most games, get the best computers, get the most awards, get the best relationships I started to wonder what the fuck was wrong with me?
I was never materialistic back then nor am I now. When ever we went shopping he spent at least $150 of my mom's money when I was only trying to spend $30 on jeans I thought were perfect.
When he turned 16 he got a job along with F's to prove he was working too much.
When I turned 16 I begged my mom if I could get a job. I showed her my financial plans. I gave her a contract stating at least 25% of my money went to helping her and dad pay for the house. I promised her my first paycheck.
She said no. She didn't want me to get bad grades (even though I ended up with them anyways).
As soon as he turned 16 he got his permit along with that job. He never came home in time for curfew.
He got caught with car jacking tools in the car by the police. He bought bb guns used to train police. He associated with gangsters but was not one of them.
I had to wait till I was 18 to get my own license.
He told people how much stress I gave him to people like Jenilee, Alison, and everyone he knew.
People hated me in respect for him.
We constantly faught over little things at home. Physically and mentally.
I don't recal ever talking shit about him.
He used to stand up for me sometimes while his friends took cheap shots at me about things such as colorguard, my sexuallity, and how much of a dork I was.
Today... He makes more money then me; but he accumulates massive amounts of debt.
He never has to try with women. He's had plenty of relationships. Long term relatoinships were easy for him to maintain. He's currently dating my ex even though I told him it was wierd.
He's still convinced that he's becoming a better brother.
Today... I make a decent wage at least compared to my friends; I'm almost out of debt.
I ALWAYS have to try with women. I've had only one online relationship. I've never had a relationship longer then 8 months a week and 2 and a half days. I would never cross the boundries of dating any of his exes.
I hope I can stay a good brother.
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